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October 22nd, 2008
October 10th, 2008
11:23 pm - just a simple birthday wish.
just came back from chomp chomp.
today went back to school for chi and pw lessons.
everything was fine.
then after that went bowling with friends.
got evelyn yanhui weikai ruth dina vivian sooklun kailin shuxia.
hahas! while we were waiting for our lane.
the srjc bowling coach was there and he started playing with the toy machine.
those kind machine that u insert coins and have to base on luck and accuracy,
then u win a stuff toy.
but the coach was dam surprising.
first time he tried, and he got 2 stuff toy at one go.
2 stuff toy for $1.50. not bad.
hahas! then we asked him tried again. failed.
he try and try and try, try untill evelyn wanna play.
dam funny.
then finally got lane to play,
only me evelyn dina and weikai played.
the rest just sat there and watch.
dina's bowling tactic dam hilarious.HAHAS!
evelyn! dam be disappointed!
dont care wat other people say! alright.
dont give them a chance to look down on you!
theres always a chance for you to try again:)
after that went back for basketball training.
today not too bad. get to play 5 on 5. yesh!
but i think today im not concentrating hard enough.
cant get a ball into the hoop. and sometimes not following instructions.
hais. bit disappointing.
after that, me brother and daddy went chomp chomp to eat.
wah piang. we ate alot.
2 plates of cao guo tiao, 1 plate of sataybeehoon, 20 satays, 4 chicken wings, 1 plate of ou jian.
and 3 mugs of sugarcane jiuce. i call it mug, cos its really very big.
dam full. but im happy today :)
its just a coincedence.
it just doesnt happen the way i wanna be.
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October 9th, 2008
08:41 pm
today went school just for 2 hrs of chi lecture.
and it was totally boring.
before the lecture start,
me evelyn jeremy weikai ran out of the lecture.
and we went squash court to play poker cards.
hahas! finding a hard time to spot places where nobody will walk pass.
then when we were playing, one teacher past by,
but she dint us. wa piang. hahas! blur siah.
then guoren come and meet us, then when we were about to play,
the former discipline master walk past and saw us.
he dint know we skipped class and play poker instead.
he just told us to play or do something more meaningful instead.
wah, heng ahs. hahas!
then faster went back. wa piang. dam freaking boring,
me and evelyn went to toilet instead.
and we went cafe to eat. hahas!
then left around half an hour, then we went back.
then me evelyn weikai and jeremy started playing poker cards again in the lecture hall.
hahas! so we bascially wasted our whole 2 hrs slacking.
and ended the lesson at 9.30am.
after that, we cant leave the school until after 12.30. ridiculous.
so we went sac and play poker cards again.
got me evelyn yanhui ruth janat valerie weikai jeremy andre.
so u can guess how noisy we can be. hahas!
but the whole sac was noisy, not only us making noise.
then theres one bloody bastard who thinks he own the sac.
he shouted, "noisy ahs!"
pls lahs, u think ur father bought the sac ahs?
dam no brain one you know. just shouted for no reason.
you play ur psp, we play our cards. do you have to care?
then went dina house for swimming, but obviously i din swim lahs.
i just sit there and watch.
got dina wanling kailin shuxia vivian ruth evelyn cindy and me!
hahas! i just dipped my feet inside the water.
dont dare swim ahs. water phobia. *winks*
i left my water bottle in the petrol kiosk today, again. hahas!
i dint meant to left my water bottle behind!
its just that i bloody forgot about it.
then went home! tada!
tml having basketball training. sians! gonna be tough.
but neba mind. looking forward to slim down. hehes!
i need to get some tanning done. or else, my skin colour will look so awkward.
ive think about it.
i wont get upset or irritated by those who are pissing me off these few days.
so, i just go on with my life. as they arent of any significance in my life.
just wanna go down on that day, to support you. :)
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October 7th, 2008
11:10 pm
just woke up from my nap.
hahas! slept from 4 plus to 9?
but im feeling very tires still.
today had pw from 8 -10.
and we cant leave the school unless after 12.30.
so ridiculous lahs.
so stayed in school to play basketball. and slack!
after that went jeremy's house.
hahas! play playstation3 with his brother.
hes dam cute, but just that i think he need more discipline.
hahas! got me, dont need scare. i still haben finish competing with him in soccer.
alright. i shall train now. hahas!
after that went home, and tada! im here. hahas! :)
tml having training in school until 8, i guess.
its gonna be tiring. hais!
suddenly, having a strong feeling to join the recreational team.
nah! hahas!
tml im going to school again! yeah!
i like going to school. why?
its a secret. shhh...
just a smile will do.
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October 6th, 2008
12:01 am
just woke up from my nap.
yesterday stayed overnight at the skcc to do the decorations for the children carnival.
me and qiuling was doing the "curtains" unitl my leg ahs! bone almost cracked ahs!
do until like 6 plus, cannot tahan le.
buay dong, then went to sleep outside the room with qiuling.
but after that, too uncomfortable le.
went into conference room, left qiuling outside. sorry! hahas!
i dint went for the dance performance cos i gotta rush the decorations for the carnival.
if i leave just like that, i will feel irresponsible.
so, sorry guys! dint met up with you guys for the last performance.
and telling u last minute. sorry!
hahas! wah, our haunted castle make some of the kids cry.
i haben give them the tokens and sign on their ticket,
and they want to leave the room.
hahas! but once they see got smth take, they not scare le.
plus, the kids were dam cute!!!! hahas! the kids make me laugh like crazy.
hahas! but sad thing is, i dint see brendan or xavier again!
hais! but nbm, children camp is coming! oh yeah!
i love the kids :)
and having so much fun during the carnival with the peeps.
so freaking funny. hahas!
then after the carnival, clear up everything and slack. so many things to clear.
and here i am! after my long afternoon nap! hahas!
tml having bball training at 5.30pm!
although can play bball with peeps again,
but the training is going to be so much harder than all the previous trainings.
and obviously not neglectin our 10km run for every triaining.
omg. im gonna be so drained out.
but hope it will be fun!
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October 3rd, 2008
11:58 pm - my life is even worst that wat you think, its just that im not showing.
this post shall be devoted to issues on pw. but others as well.
today having difficulties in printing,
cos the library system is down.
and at first we already agree to meet at the library to settle the wr.
but he came for a while, then went off for his lunch just like that.
and dint even like tell us. never mind.
bobian, i went bookshop to print.
but the queue was freakingly long.
and one girl was using it as if its her own com.
wa piang! then give up, told naha that our group will hand in after the lesson.
so after lesson, went back to bookshop to print.
but the queue was like dam freakingly long.
like thrice of the queue before the lesson.
no choice, so have to wait.
and the worst thing is, my leader who is suppose to print,
went off just like that. leaving me to queue and print. twice!
and he just pushed the responsibility to me!
freakingly irritated by him. never mind, and i waited one hour just to print the wr out.
but the wr which was printed out, the format is totally wrong.
and i might as well dont print it out, cos naha wont accept it.
wah, im so f***kingly pissed off.
and asked leader to sms naha whether we could hand in to him tml or mon?
watever. naha dont accept it.
and then that leader just simply push off the problem just by saying he dunno leis.
wa piang. feel like really bash him up. just ripped off his skin and ramped out all his guts.
so, i went steph house to print. luckily got her to help me.
then went back pass to naha. think he is quite frustrated. but i dont give a dam man.
for the GPP, i not going to print it.
its wat naha said, the leader has to print it out to show him.
i dont care whether its gonna drag down the whole group.
he is just going to print it.
if hes going to push the resposibility to me again.
i swear he wont have a good time in pw.
and please f**kingly go and download a microsoft! or i might just blow up anytime.
be more proactive instead of being dependent on others.
hellos! like from GPP until now, u are pushing the responsibilitiy of printing and editing to me!
why? just because i have microsoft, you dont have?
so it means that, im unlucky to have microsoft, while you are lucky not to have microsoft?!
arrghs! im so pissed off now!
my second interview failed again! im not going lijiang or shanghai.
best. second interview also fail.
and failed to promote to jc2 next year.
fail this and fail that.
great. guess i really need lots of optimism and support.
arrghs! for once, i hate life.
and really hated it. hating it until i feel like stop moving forward.
and stop striving for the better. cos my hard work wont pay off.
everything will changed, but one thing that wont change is,
my confidence level will always remain at 0% for the rest of my life.
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11:36 pm
just came back from movie from eve,yanhui and weikai.
basically today got chi lecture and pw tutorial.
wa piang. chinese was so boring.
that alot people went out of the lecture hall to slack.
like 1 lecturer and 2 teachers in such a big lecture hall?
and the 2 teachers were so dam blur.
hahas! some went to eat.
me and evelyn went to toilet and make brownie.
after that, pw. having difficulties in printing the wr.
shant spoil this lovely post, i shall devote one post to pw.
then went to watch " The Home of Bunnies"
quite a nice show. rate it 3.5 out of 5 stars.
its about girls actually. alot of pretty girls. im attracted to them though.
hahahs! and here i am blogging.
tml is dragonboat! after that meeting steph to go waraku to eat! yes!
then at night going skcc to help yj in the decorations. cool.
and sunday, early morning going for dance performance,
then going for the children day carnival, then go back again, for the post celebrations.
yes! fun! and tuesday maybe going out with friends again to watch movies!
gotta rest! bye! i will survive the dragonboat. hahas! hors, steph?
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October 2nd, 2008
11:02 pm
today end shcool at 1.30.
and finally i touch the bball!
hahas! play basketball with eve, cindy, sher and huiyin.
me and eve waited for cindy and shermaine from 1.30 to 3.30.
wa! we like dead corspes waiting for them.
cos its so sunny and hot. cum we train very long le.
and i cant believe evelyn started reading her storybook. omg.
then we played match. hahas! dam funny but fun of cos. :)
then huiyin came. and we started gossiping.
hahas! gossip until dam hilarious.
potential aunties, i guess.
HAHAS! tml end school at 11.45.
like huh? so early?!
hahas! that means i will be bored again at home!
but! sat i got dragonboat! muahahahahas!
im not going to drown, becos huiyin will save me!
i think even if no one saves me, i will just grab onto anyone's hair.
i dont care. hahas! but fun! dam looking forward to it. oh yeah!
dragonboat, dragonBOAT, DRAGONBOAT!!!! shhhh---muack! splendid.
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October 1st, 2008
11:09 pm
surprisingly, for the past 2 days,
i stayed at home and slack.
hahas! i even return to my books, olright.
scary. but i found out that studying without stress is fun.
cos now i study, i dont have to worry about any tests or tutorials.
but its just study out of interest.
so ya, i studied econs.
and realise that i made quite a few mistakes for the exams.
it wont happen again next year, i guess.
hahas!
tml might be staying in school to play bball. but its not confirm yet.
i wanna touch the bball. plat match of cos. muahahahahas!
and tml having pw and chinese for the whole day.
omgod, i hope i survive til the end of the day. hahas!
or else its gonna be torturing. :)
finally, im going back to school! yeah!
hahas! i wont be sians in school anymore.
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September 30th, 2008
02:15 pm
i guess the play hard days are gonna be pushed to the nov?
today dint go cycling. cos last minute i cancelled it.
me steph shaun and jianle?
i dont want them to go out for the sake of them keeping their words.
ya, so im still at home.
just now flipping through the cookies recipes.
thinking of which cookies should i bake.
just realise my livejournal is full of boredom.
cos its all about my studies.
but ya, my world is full of studies.
have been thinking about what i want to be in future.
looking back at my past aspirations. some were quite ridiculous.
kindergarden: teacher
pri 1 & 2: pe teacher
pri 3 & 4: a nurse ( like huh? i wunt wanna be a nurse now.)
pri 5 & 6: lawyer. ( hohos. i might just end up fighting with another lawyer.)
sec 1: doctor ( oh my, if my qualifications allow me, i will be a doctor)
sec 2: singer. ( thats the most riculous aspirations. )
sec 3: interior designer ( i want, but being interior designer in singapore wont get me far)
sec 4: graphics designer / fashion designer ( but i found out my creativity is limited)
jc 1: i dont have any currently. just feel like taking one step at a time.
i feel like going for product design or business woman.
but product design links me to dnt, which is horrifying to me.
hahahas! not only me? , all dnt students i guess.
i want to go back to school.
i rather study in SRJC then not doing anything.
at least i can meet up with friends, or play bball with them.
its not that i feel bored at home.
but i feel uneasy, wasting of time not studying.
thurs faster come! so that i can go school!
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01:14 am
omgoodness.
the best stuff is gonna be in store for me.
my exams are over! hahas!
and i wanna play hard before i start school again, thats thursday.
and most importantly getting back my results, which i guess will be horrendous.
today had my hist p2.
but the worst thing is the stuff that i memorise dint not come out.
and its totally dint come out.
that means i have to come up with the essay myself.
but i dont even care, i just pumped in those i memorised.
i dont care anymore. my econs and chem is gonna fail.
by passing hist, its not going to help me in anyway.
then ya! my exams are over!
today accompany yanjing to give out flyers.
walk here and walk there.
and now, both of my legs dam freakingly suan.
i guess i never walk long distances for a very long time le.
and i totally agree with this.
what i have been doing nowadays is to coop inside the room,
sitting on roller chairs and mug.
and now im quite tired.
but i refuse to sleep. hahas! cos hardly i got the time to slack!
and tml going cycling with steph they all.
really hope tml wont rain. let me cycle for once.
and 5th of oct, i cant decide on the events.
we were will be dancing again at habourfront on 5th oct 10am.
but, the children day carnival will start at 10am at skcc.
how?! i dont wan to feel irresponsible.
but i badly wanna dance again with those peeps. i seriously miss them alot.
in economics terms, i'll have to incur opportunity costs. HAHAS!
i shall decide tml then.
i feel uneasy not studying or touching my books.
i really dunno why. i feel lost and im really stuck at what should i do next.
just now i really got the temptation to get my books out and study again.
like huh?! its only 8 hours since i finish my exams. im going crazy.
i will be retaining one more year. and another year of bball. and another year of SRJC.
ya, yanjing is right, why dont i transfer to poly since i know im retaining? wont i will be suffering in uni too?
but, i dont want my one year of efforts to come to waste.
and somemore i go poly, i dont know wat course to choose.
ive totally lost interest in the courses and ive totally no idea what my future will be like.
i cant gurantee that i will do well in poly too.
i still wanna try jc, i dont mind wasting one more year.
and since im able to graduate from jc to go into a uni,
i guess it wont be much of a problem, just that i need to put in more time and effort, and more sacrifices on my part.
i believe things will change for the better.
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September 29th, 2008
12:38 am
arrghs. dam irritated right now.
3 days to memorise 2 essay analysis.
omg, even spastic can do better than me.
and now im even having difficulties trying to recap what i have memorise.
arrghs.i evengot so irritated that i shouted at my brother asking him to shut up.
while hes trying to ask me whether i need his help to iron my school uniform.
arrghs. feeling bad!
lingjiale, u are having a superior spastic-ness in you today.
im so like prepared to kick anyone that irritates me today.
i need a give someone a real good kick in his or her butt.
anyone will do. just volunteer and i'll sent u off flying into the air.
if tml, these 2 essay analysis that i memorise dint come out.
i shall have my afternoon nap tml. and i'll make sure its a real good one.
exams are over, but having difficulties trying to find sec friends to go out.
cos quite a few are busy, hais.
and im having like real bad attitude now. arrghs!
i just feel like going wild, at least i dont have to ponder over my worries.
ecstasy anyone? nah, im just kidding.
im totally worn out ,physically and mentally.
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September 27th, 2008
06:58 pm
the people who brought laughter into my life :)
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September 26th, 2008
01:09 pm
the last song ever
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September 25th, 2008
12:27 pm
heys! im back to blogging like for a long time!
hahas! nowadays busy with promos and the dance rehearsals.
and the actual performance commence last sunday. oohs.
i just love hanging around with them.
they are so great. i had so much fun dancing with them.
im having so much fun. its been long since i last experience life.
i guess after the dance, we wont be meeting together anymore.
but just to say: i love you guys alot!
and lets dance together if we have any more chance.
peishan, jiayi, alina, alicia, michelle, simin, jiayin, cheeting, zhiyin, joy, xuanfeng, junkai, hanzhen, nicholas, junbin.
all the best for everything, guys. :)
and i just ended my chem paper today.
the last second paper.
next mon will be my last paper. hst p2.
ive got 3 days to study, so im going study hard and go for this last shot!
and thats it.
mon: GP paper and econs paper.
for GP, watever my mind can think of, i just write down.
whether its out of point, theres no point worrying it now.
for Econs, i really did my best. i tried to squeeze my every braincells,
just to come up with one 'power pac" answer.
tues: chinese paper, maths paper.
chinese was acceptable.
but maths was totally horrendous.
dam difficult. but quite challenging actually.
its like, u are panicking to work out the answer, and at the same time, have to keep up with the time.
wah piang. but the end of the day, my brain was halfway dead.
wed: hist paper 1.
well, we are suppose to do 2 essay questions.
but guess wat, i only did one.
hais. i just hope my that one question can pass well.
so that my Paper 2 can pull the marks up.
thurs: chem paper1 and 2.
i tell you, Paper 2 has the worst chemistry questions ive got until now.
its so dam horrendous than maths.
its seriously not easy. dam ***king difficult!.
i dont find any questions or even sub-questions that are easy.
arrghs, i totaly freaked out when i read the questions.
i almost teared when i was doing okays.
having a hard time controlling my tears and trying to face the chemistry questions.
like, for econs and hist, i have no confidence in passing.
so i counting on chem.
and chemistry is giving my all this shit.
how am i going to promote?
and Paper 1, i feel like totally giving up.
like ya, if i fated to retain, no point hiding the truth and bluffing myself with these ridiculous excuses.
but i guess next year will be a better one for me.
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September 20th, 2008
10:26 pm
back to blogging again.
oohs. nowdays mugging like nobody business.
past four days, reaching school at 9 plus to study.
mug in school until 9 plus then went home.
reach home, mug again until 2 plus and sleep.
and the next day, all over again.
having headache these days.
dint have much sleep.
and tml is the performance le.
hope everything turns out right.
and monday is the start of promos le!
and ive not completed at least half of the revision.
guess promoting would be really a problem to me.
i might seem hardworking now.
but its becos i was doing last minute revision for the past one week.
dam tired now and feel like totally giving up.
i need inspiration!
p.s. and it will be my turn next! dont run away!
hope next year will be fun year for me again!
like this year, or even better than this year.
at least i will feel happy retaining.
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September 17th, 2008
12:16 am
dint manage to post for a long time!
i know its not long.
but! i just miss blogging. :) muahas!
summarise what ive been doing nowadays.
ive been going to school and staying in school until 9 plus to mug.
then go home eat dinner and mug again until 2 plus then sleep.
next morning the same old routine.
im gettiing sick and tired of this.
but i just have to hang on.
alot of unhappiness nowadays. but im not gonna care.
cos i have SRJC to accompany me!
hahas! today studied in school with crazy people
including one da she tou, hors, kailin?
HAHAS!
guess the tension of promos is getting stronger and stronger.
been quite stressed out recently.
but ive motivation in school too :)
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September 13th, 2008
06:40 pm
im trying my best to start blogging until after my promos.
but i cant control myself.
once im at home,
i will start watching tv, using laptop, snacking.
i just cant study at home.
i think im going rivervale plaza now to study, alone!
maybe until 12 then ask daddy come and fetch me.
and ive changed my mind!
i dont wanna retain this year.
i would rather retain in jc2.
becos i would get another year of revision.
rather than retainaing this year to get another year of revision of only jc1 revision.
hahas! thats what ruth told me.
so glad got her to wake me up. muahahahahahas!
im not going care about anything else except studying! whohoo!
hope i will get to promote to jc2.
i want go be present during the commendation day!
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September 11th, 2008
10:02 pm
back home!
just now met with steph yanjing and ahmin.
HONG HUI MIN!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MY GIRL! :)
went swensens, i ate fish baked rice, again! hahas!
today school was quite fun.
i dont know why, nth special.
but i find it quite fun.
cos SRJCians are all very nice people.
they always make my day. :)
and today i was sharing my pri stuff with yanhui and evelyn.
hahas! so dam hilarious and surprising.
went for maths extra lesson.
and only 5 people went. hahas!
then lim ting gave us functions questions to do.
functions are so dam difficult lor!
that lim ting keep suaning me today siah!
keep freezing me with his lame jokes.
he said its a way to distress. almak!
but i cant deny that ive got the best maths teacher in this school :)
p.s. kailin, next time eat wrap must eat properly hors!
satgoing sentosa le!
im playing volleyball! yeah! dam happy. and can suntan at the same time.
oohs, so exciting.
but promos is next next week.
which is coming real soon.
hais. beginning to accept the fact that promoting t jc will be very hard for me.
but hahas! i need time anyway.
i love SRJC:)
because i like the principle.
because i love my friends there.
because i love the teachers there.
because i love the environment there.
because i love studying. im not denying. but i prefer it to be at my own pace.
F*** you. cant you just download a microsoft?!
how do you expect yourself to do a project when you dont even micosoft tools?!
being dependent of me, it wont turn out good, alright.
and cant you be just more pro-active?
rather than me, always coming up and leading everyone in the discussioin.
like, huh? am i the leader?
i dont wish to spoil the whole group.
but pls, just go and download microsoft.
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12:05 am
im back again! hahas!
just came back from my dance rehearsal.
i reached home about 11 plus can.
and i still haben complete my homework yet.
but today was fun.
got one boy very cute ehs!
he dance until ver funny! hahas! hes called gerald.
he was dancing with his back facing the audience all along. dam hilarious.
and tml meeting steph they all for dinner.
and sat going sentosa with dance partners.
i cant study again.
and great, watever tests i get back.
i failed everything. hais.
but amazingly, i passed my GP essay test. dam surprised.
hahas! guess, promoting would be great problem for me now.
and i think i beginning to have problems.
whenever im taking tests, my hands will start trembling.
i dont know why.
scared? stressed? and if i start trembling, my mind will be totally blank.
and i cant complete anymore questions.
and watever i wrote down will be all rubbish.
arrghs. dont ever let it happen in promos.
it seems the other way round.
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